I have recently become aware of a need to change how I speak. I'm not sure how to work it out. I know total silence is impossible although it attracts me. But I also know I've only just begun to learn how to express emotions. I know there must be a balance, but I haven't hit on it yet.
I find words, which I used to think so wonderfully powerful, to be woefully weak at having the ability to make any lasting mark. Except maybe a negative one.
Or maybe that's simply it. I need to abolish negative speech. But this sounds like a Pollyanna saccharine way to talk that I can't do. I also can't lie anymore. So I don't know where to go but into quiet. I suspect even quiet can result in misunderstandings though.
God help me. Purify my mind and tongue. I give myself to you as wholly as I can. Help my unbelief and show me how to use words as you do.
